my life might lose sight of itself and disappear

[from Have You Seen Me? © 1991 by Elizabeth Graver, p80:]


---For a moment I wanted to tell him it was because I cared about him, but then I realized that perhaps it was only because I cared about myself. I needed to talk, all the time, about everything; if I didn't talk, my life might lose sight of itself and disappear, the way people with no baby pictures couldn't conceive of ever having been so small. I needed voices around me, not just his, but many voices. I needed a job where I was expected at a certain hour, where a great many things piled up on my desk and I finished the day reeling and tumbled into sleep. ...


[For me this captures one of those self-realization moments that people (i hope) occasionally have. (Because i sure do.)  It's OK to need people; it means you're alive.

And i encourage everyone to seek out an Elizabeth Graver book or story; she's one of the best.

Enjoy the day!]